Older Diagnosis

From the mouth of the Aspie!  His thoughts on being diagnosed with autism at age 35.

Older Diagnosis, is it worth it???

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I’ve read some articles and peoples’ opinions about if it’s worth getting a diagnosis at a later age versus younger age.  I say hell yes!  Sometimes I hate my diagnosis, I still think it helped me more than it hurt me.

Being diagnosed really helped me understand a lot of my life. It helped me not feel so bad about high school because it was a damn chore for me.  I was either passing out due to stress or just skipping school in general.  So it helped me not feel so guilty.  I used to feel that I was lazy in high school and that I wouldn’t live up to what I thought I could.  But now I know it was due to the autism and learning disabilities that comes with it.  I eventually did home school and it was so much better!  I actually learned and was able to understand and get assignments done (though I was one credit away from getting my diploma).

The diagnosis also helped me understand certain feelings and meltdowns. For a while, I got so annoyed and pissed off at myself when I would have a meltdown.  I knew it didn’t do any good or help anything, and I thought I was just a brat.  It also explained some of the things I feel.  Every once in a while I have a feeling like I need to flex every muscle in my body–I’ve heard it’s sort of like restless legs, but restless everything.  Now I know that I need to stim and that helps a lot.

The diagnoses helped me to understand why I had so many fears and stresses.  Some days I get so stressed and worried about driving even if it’s only 15 minutes away.  It’s dumb, but I stress.  I worry that a deer will jump in front of my car, a tire will blow, I’ll get a ticket, etc.  If I have someone with me it makes it much less stressful.  I will usually always drive when my wife and I go somewhere, and I have no problems.  I just need someone to be with me in the car.

I know I don’t think correctly and I don’t give myself enough credit.  Part of autism is just that–not thinking correctly.  I’m working on it and I’ll continue to work on it.

–JUSTIN–